Last year around this time I bought a diary. The cover promised 2015 would be my year. I feel hard for that idea. Determined that 2015 would see success, motivation and inspiration. That I would be filled with ambition and the year would deliver amazing things. Such a lot of pressure on the infant shoulders of a brand new year. I wasn’t the only one. Many of my Facebook friends declared similar expectations. That 2015 would be the year of abundant success.
2015 ended up being a year of learning. Huge success did not coming knocking at my door, but there were numerous little highs. Plenty of things to be grateful for. Beautiful and important things happened to so many family and friends in 2015. In my own life, things were quieter. I launched my own business and learned a great deal in doing so. About my self-belief, about my limits and about my ultimate goals in life. I tried to do too much. I sacrificed time with my family in doing so. I won’t be doing that this year.
I have gentler expectations of 2016.
For the first time I am adopting a word for the year. I know that I am quite late to this particular party, but it’s the first time I have felt inspired to do so.
My word is space.
2015 felt claustrophobic. So many things crowded my time. Unrealistic to do lists written daily. Saying yes to things that I had no right to say yes to. This year I am determined to create more space. To allow myself to breathe.
To give things their appropriate space. I am going to more aware of my boundaries and more respectful of family. More mindful of the creative power of “nothing” time. There were times last year when I felt like my feet were paddling madly, but I was going nowhere. This year, I want to master the art of the easy glide. Assured and thoughtful movement propelling me forward. I want to slow down, be more mindful, spend time on the things that will ultimately bring me closer to my career and life goals. I want to be crystal clear on what those goals are.
The waters were cloudy in 2015 and my direction wasn’t clear. But I think that was important. I think I had to go through that. Sometimes things need to be blurred before you can bring them into focus.
I have created a to do list that I think will help me with this. It’s not just an ordinary to do list, but an assessment of how each task will bring me closer to my goals. It’s a tool to help me value my time. You are welcome to use it too.
I also want to create beautiful spaces and spend time in beautiful spaces. The house has been neglected due to last year’s busyness. I want to address that. In a way that doesn’t leave me over-whelmed. This list will help I think.
Last year we spent a good amount of time at the beach. We will do that again this year. The space that grounds me and reinvigorates me. I will try to take the boys to more rain-forest places as well. I live in a town surrounded by natural beauty. I will make the space to be in that beauty. To appreciate those spaces.
What does all this mean for this little blog in the coming year?
I intend to post on Tuesdays and Thursdays and occasionally on Saturdays, where I will have a style (often DIY) focus. Maybe some weeks I won’t achieve that. And I am going to be okay with that.
I have been having a lot of fun with #Everydaystyle and I’ll continue that on instagram.
You can also read me over at Mumtastic and hopefully a few other places during the year.